Living In Envy

A long-led lonely life...

Growing up, in a lonely bed

Lost to infinite worlds, within my head

Escape from bounds, of soulless dread

If only I lived there instead

Oh God, I wish I was dead

Empty words of pain

Splattered across this page, in vain

Living in envy, of the mundane

Still I, suffer silently

From your disdain

With only, myself to blame

Eyes cast down, in shame

When I’m gone

Will you remember my name?

Sidelong glances, at love

Desire, from a distance

For I’m not good enough

There is no gift, of God above

I am all alone

With a soul, hurt to stone

Left here on my own

A broken spirit, in this shattered home

Like a foolish king, upon a broken throne

Hard-hearted, without the will to hope

Watching the world, through the glass

All of life, gone so quickly past

Alone I exist, a wayward social outcast

I run at a crawl, to nowhere fast

How long will this, vicious circle last?

Author's Note

Know my pain...