Denial of Entry

 

I’ve hushed my self,

hidden it away

behind a maze of smoke & mirrors.

Conversation is

never more to be

face-to-face exchange.

My spirit faces sideways,

turns its head, never

daring to look yours in the eye.

And though you’ll try

to find my eyes,

to reestablish a connection,

I’ll dodge each gaze

with a twist of my head,

uttering phrases nonsensical

to help me ward off

the thoughts of you

that spring unbidden

to the forefront when

you are so near.

No longer are you

allowed inside.

All you’re allowed

is a mesh façade;

you’ll see me, but

I’ll be distorted,

not whole, and

you’ll wish to see my fully,

but I’ll deny you,

just as you enjoy denying others.

Reviews

[Kena Dawn Augustine]

Good job. At first it reminded me of one of my fav. Jill Scott songs, "whenever you're around," talking about how her man is near, but he's so far away, and so cruel. this piece is good.

My fav part:
I'll be distorted,

not whole, and

you'll wish to see my fully,

but I'll deny you,

just as you enjoy denying others

what a catchy stanza to end on: just as you deny others. You give it back girl! don't let him in if he only brings you down!