It Is Not Right

A poem about the past....and moving on from it

It Is Not Right

My Feelings….

My Emotions

My Actions

And every time I think about all the damage they have caused

I start to weep inside…

It is not right

It is not just

It is not moral

For me to think this way

I just want to help them….

They have helped me so

And yet…..I am become this….

I am become my own Death. 

And that is not right

For in my death lies pain and suffering for you

Whenever I look into your eyes

And look into your soul

I feel ashamed of myself

For what I have become

For what I have done to you

Oh selfless angel

What have I done to you

It is not right

I know it was not right

I have apologized over and over and you have accepted every one

Yet I still feel the urge to over and over again

Why?

Why can I not move on?

For you….

That is not right

For me to make you endure that

Maybe it is all because….I have not forgiven myself

You have, but I have not

But I must forgive myself

For that would be right…

You are the one I have hurt

It is your decision

Your forgiveness I must seek

And I have got it

I will say it one final time

From the bottom of my heart

I am sorry

And now I must move on

I must let it all go

You have forgiven me

It was not right

It was never right

But neither was forcing it all upon you

So now I shall pass on form it all

For you….

Author's Note

As always, criticism is welcome