The Best Type of Pain

With the sinew, the cell...
with a heart racing too fast
with shallow breath
with entranced eyes in wonder
with endless dreams
and infinite impatience

the mind stands shore facing
feeling the fatal force
something accumulating, accruing
o'er the ocean face -
a bruising bedlam of monstrous
carnivorous clouds

nothing ever came to the heart
quietly

but this came in like a vengeful
monster, a trauma,
a bellow, a beautiful shimmering
angel taking me from
my dark default by cracking bolts
of lightening blistering over
the cosmos of a life

taking up the pen again to cope
with shadows and smiles and
hope and exhaustion
and sincerely the best type of pain