An Experiment

I'm still looking for the truth,

but not in dark forests. 

As I get older,

I understand that we all

still need 

the Teddy Bear on the bed. 

I'm still looking to really

feel that I am 

the thing

I want to be, 

in the flesh of me. Combing my hair. Sat on the chair. 

The key is acting. 

The Grand Performance. 

We shift - life a stage - 

between roles; 

I am painfully quiet,

but I smoke, wine, smile

and sing Human League

for the whole neighbourhood to behold. 

I'm still looking for the truth,

but not in dark forests,

which harbour ominous lakes

cloaked in leaves, rabid wolves,

ghouls, gruesome and morbid

for the thought of it all. 

When I wake,

I will want to see you.