Didnt Mean To Disappear

I was sixteen, drifting in a summer haze,
Old friends, old roads, those memory stained days.
We laughed, we drank, the stars shined bright.
Felt like kings in that small-town.

Then the bottle talked louder than me,
And I became a man I swore I’d never be.
Woke up heavy with a head full of fog,
And a heart full of silence, ticking like a broken clock.

You looked at me like I lit the stars,
Said the night we had, it healed your scars.
But I played dumb, said, "Girl, I don’t recall,"
Walked away from a heart that gave it all.

I told myself lies, tried to run from the shame,
But your face in my mind keeps calling my name.
Every silence I gave, echo’d louder than truth,
I regret the man I played in my youth.

Coulda said sorry, coulda been real,
Instead I broke something I can’t heal.
You ain’t a story, you ain’t a line,
You’re a chapter I regret, stuck in my mind.

I told myself lies, tried to run from the shame,
But your face in my mind keeps calling my name.
Every silence I gave, echo’d louder than truth,
I regret the man I played in my youth.

I ain't looking for pity, or some clean slate,
Just hoping one day, we can set the record straight.
If you hear this song, maybe you’ll know,
That kid is grown up, and he ain’t proud of who he was.

I’m sorry I was blind when I looked at you,
Sorry for the silence, and what I didn’t do.
I was a kid, caught in a lie,
Too scared to say I made you cry.

Didn’t mean to forget you,
Didn’t mean to pretend...
Wish I could go back,
Do it right in the end.