Alone

Feeling quite lonely

Alone

Alone in the void
a cigarette to calm the night
The puff of smoke blends with the colors of the light

Not a word spoken, a sleepless reckless malicious abyss claimed to have conquered his essence of life

a steady heartbeat so still it coated the blankness in his body and mind, festering in the wild turmoil sent to belittle what little soundness he had left

He is down and gone, I am left and broken, though my heart beats clarity the blood it pumps is gray with trinkets of black. Its recesses fall deep within the chasms of despair

He wouldn’t know what to do with thee , I wouldn’t know what to say to it. All he knows is this will take a long passage to pass. Long enough to question the journey, long enough to query his own strength

Would love save him I doubt, for it drives him to shut down.
Would rich possessions free him I doubt for he does not even have the necessities to obtain such
Would it all make sense in the end? I figured it wouldn’t matter for something inside him desires to see it through before it all fades to nothingness

Rest assured I am alone, he is alone no one to love me but my own, no one to caress me but my own bare arms.

The pain instills me with horror I shade with a radiant smile that pierces through the drenches of sorrow I wish to extinguish. a heart of gold I yearn for and yet my embrace wouldn’t let me seek the love I so long for to have.

I am alone, he is so alone, it f*****g stinks but i’m so cool that I thug it for thee the only decision worth confronting and combating.

But the light doesn’t shine for nothing, it travels with the speed of light for us to see in these horrid times, perhaps it is the Lords way of saying “We offer paths of salvation in different matters bestowed upon for you”

So yes I am still alone but… perchance it is an opportunity to grow despite the terror it brings

Grievously, it appears I will remain alone for quite some time