Borderline Love

Is there a particular person in your family whom you feel in conflict? write a poem in that person’s voice, describing the relationship between you.

 

As the years trickle past, my blood thickens

I can read your attacks, I know you’re loathing

Yourself, but instead you blame me

For the control you lost when you were abandoned 

Your glass wall of protection is cracking,

I should have known this is how you would react.

 

Vicious, juvenile temptations

Cast a lightning streak past my peripherals

Barking animalistic taunts into reddening ears

Aching to release one hard swipe,

One good crack of linguistic retort

That you so deserve

I restrain the golden glove boxer within

Tears fall from my bruised and throbbing heart

Waiting for the emotional beating to stop

‘I know she’s going to leave me’

Paranoid that my garish insults cut a little too deep,

‘Go wash your hands for the 3^rd time

That should help.’

 

I’m the grandmother who bakes nails into her cookies

And pushes you away because she is afraid of losing you,

Loves you unconditionally, under one condition,

You are always the punching bag and my ‘sweet girl’

 

I’ve lost count of how many times

The barb caught on your heart tugged a little too hard,

So I released you

Only to lure you back in once more

And staked you like a vampire on a cold, sunny morning.

 

They say the closest ones feel it worst.

Justified, that’s why I must push them away from me,

So they don’t get hurt

They might even get too close,

Close enough to see my traumatized mind

Even though she’s witnessed it on my darkest days

And been burned by its’ toxic waste

I will always love you, forever

Author's Note

My beautiful, wonderful grandma has Borderline Personality Disorder, if you know anyone like this you can relate, if not, then look it up.

Reviews

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Wow, such flow and great poem.
Wonderful work!
100/100

[Kait]

Thank you so much!!