Can't, won', let it go

Is it our shortcomings that turn to be the blessings in disguise ,
Because if anything , I just want to know what makes me different ,
Cause it's becoming harder to find my place in this big world ,

Is it in the pain that separates me from the rest , or is it a delusion to be separate ,

Why is it I need to find a place to belong , because we all know it ain't going to be ,

I have a past , like the rest , I just can't let it be , let it go , let it fly ,
No ,
I let it trap me , whip , lash me , cause I havnt found the peace from forgiveness ,
And like the rest around me , keep saying the same tired thing ,
Why can't you just , why can't you just , why can't you just let go

But if I , but if I , but if I let go , than who am I ,
For all I know is the pain , the agony , the misery ,

And I'm afraid to see where the other half lives