Miserable

Starting to get sick to my stomach , gagging on my thoughts and beliefs ,
It's caused me to drool blood ,
Cause I'm toxic to myself , toxic to others ,

I'm just a disease , in need of a cure ,
Cause I'm poison , cause I'm toxic

What's with this devil on my shoulder ,
Eating the chip ,
Getting me angry ,
But if you sold your soul , can't complain , you got to reap what you sew,

And I'll be dammed to let another into my world ,
Unless it's to drown you in the bottom of the ocean where I left my heart ,
Cause I'm broken ,

I'm just a disease , I'm just toxic ,
And I'm looking for a cure ,

It must be cause I'm riddled like a puzzle ,
And I'm seeing nothing but question marks,
But my fists have become bloody ,
With all the punching I've done ,
Trying to break through the wall of insecurity,
But all I do , is become more confused ,

It's not enough to have it all ,
Cause everything would fall short of having it,

I'll blame it on my shortcomings , than my addictions , than my mental illness ,
Than you ,

I'm just a disease , nothing but toxic insecurity ,
A little of talent to grab you ,
Strangle your throat with my passions ,
But I'll be left in the corner , crying , trying , to find a knife ,
Slit my wrists , throat ,
End this miserable movie I call my life ,
Cause I'm a disease .

And I know , I f*****g know , I'm not alone , it will get better ,
And I know , I f*****g know ,
But the last thing I want is pity , sympathy , or an ounce empathy ,

I just want a cure ,

I just want to die