BRANDY LOVE

Who’s the first to go? You know

it’s gotta happen because nothing

is like it’s supposed to be. But then,

has anything ever worked like it

should? She remembers the first

time she stepped outside and how

it felt when her pink toes pressed

into the crushed gravel. It hurt. It

still does, just like it’s supposed to.

That book she read was all wrong,

white is clean, sin-free, beautiful

on its surface, and that whale must

have been a magnificent package

of muscle and sinew, such swift

tonnage to blow through the water

like a storm and left those men adrift

to think about the important stuff

of breath and blood.  She nods now

when she looks in the mirror; the

stranger on the other side frowns,

has something to say, her brow

furrowed, eyebrow up, she asks

all raspy and serious, “Who the

hell are you?” So she shrugs, replies,

“That’s exactly what I want to know.”

Author's Note

Brandy was a student of mine many years ago... just another one of my babies... Life for her has not been easy; some of the choices she made, some evils thrust upon her, never able to find a proper anchor. It's the ones like her who touch me the deepest.

Reviews

[ETERNITY]

I get jealous when I read your writes and your passion is invested so deeply in someone else.
I do understand your "babies" mean so much to you.
Here's something I wrote with you in mind...yes, still...
Love To Love You

A Poem by ETERNITY

I toss and I turn
Memories of you
Still burn me
.
The sheets still smell of you
No matter the washes
or whatever I do
.
My dreams are enraptured
I awake always thinking of you
And all the things we used to do
.
Your whisper still chills me
Your absence still kills me
I will never get over you.

[Michael Sun Bear]

I really like this Vol. such an interesting transition from her childhood and toes in the gravel to the whale to her current adulthood looking in the mirror. As someone who has made so many bad choices, I too have looked in the mirror and asked the same questions. I hope she continues to live and benefit from your friendship.

[Vol]

Michael,
Life is hard. Everyone's. My students who grew up in normal, boring homes have not succeeded in any fashion more than those who were raised in violent, alcolholic homes... If you throw in any serious complication, things aren't a little worse, they are exponentially more difficult... Brandy made several mistakes that have kept her from a safe pursuit of happiness.
Vol

[Lorry]

Well of course I was gonna read something called brandy love because a decaff coffee brandy is my favourite nightcap, but of course not everyone who deserves happy gets it and I reckon that the mirror is always our final reckoning, as we wonder what happened to the poor reflection before us and just about fathom it is us.
Your last line will be most of our final thoughts too. Just who the hell are we?

[Vol]

Lorry,
I was not shy about telling my students that I loved them, and the proof is that I put up with their s**t at all. Brandy needed it more than most, still does.
Vol

[jacob erin-cilberto]

And I have a feeling being taught by you helped her immensely with her hard life.
The mirror tells us the truth.
j.

[Vol]

Jacob,
She really was rather off-putting, is a Butch. I loved my "Babies" and told the so all the time, and acted like it too. Some of them needed it more than others...
Vol

[ETERNITY]

Vol, you have mountains of books about your life! I wish you could put them all to script!
You write beautifully and your words always grab my heart.

[Vol]

Thank you, Eternity... It is nice to have someone who enjoys what I write...