That even so will still long for you

When was love more than illusion

And hearts weren’t so fragile and fooled

Cries comfort the weak to bed

And the strong carry on in dreams

I’m drowning with faint breathes

And your lungs are full and clear

Poison of feelings and hopes

Tomorrow still won’t bring comfort

Forever cycling in tears

I can’t let you go and can’t

Make you love me either

What is of me?

Dive into the silent water and

I keep creating a chaos

That stirs every atom of irritation

And leaves me a shell left on the shore

I’ll be washed away

When my heart least expects

I strangely stick into the sand

I won’t even let myself be saved

Do I even want to move from this

Or am I begging for a redemption

My existence keeps lacking a form

And I’m dragged only deeper into sands

The ocean is too vast and I'm too small

For my comfort I trade my will

Just for another cycle of chaos

That only leaves me lonely

And your heart will laugh

At the most damaged parts of me

That even so will still long for you