Understand

I am researching the meaning of existence and my path is very long and hard. Many daggers and traps have befallen to me over the years and now that I have come so close I found I am endless pages away.

I have been looking so long
The secrets that have come true before my eyes
I fear I dont see the trueth anymore
I try sleeping but nothing comes but restless hours

My halo broken
Like a silver ring snapped by the cold
I read endless words but nothing is there
A powerful nothingness replaced with fear

Help me
I am lost
I am fallen like my enemy
Trueth I have always known

People tell me I am wrong
And you know you cant take anymore
The old untrue stories come full round
You turn to yell
Hoping I will listen

I know the shadows
I cry out in endless rain
I will sleep again
With dreams turned to nightmares

I am far away from home
Far from the earth I know
A friend no more to me

I fight to find trueth for me alone
And I care for it
I call the darkness my own
I know you could not understand
You wont understand

Please dont cry for me
I am at war withen
Brothers and sisters
I am on my own
And I knew you would not understand