buried life

TW blood?

as I tread through the snow my breath shaking body trembling forcing to keep going forward I was told as long as I never move in a different direction not back not left not right only straight I would get to where I need I would get to where it matters most I would find everything I have been searching for my entire life, but I've been walking for what feels like years decades now but I have no idea how long I've been on this journey I feel lost especially in the blinding blizzard that passed over a few weeks ago I couldn't see the wind was so strong it knocked me back at least a few miles maybe more I have no idea I have no idea if I was able to keep direction I now worry.. what if I turned without realizing one of the times I had to pick myself up what if I accidentally got directional blindness. these thoughts plague me I fear now only will I never complete my journey or find the most precious of artifacts but I will also be lost. the thought of never returning home to those I love is the greatest fear I have ever felt I mean do they even miss me do they notice I left in the first place I didn't wanna tell anyone I was leaving I didn't want them to follow in case they too would be hurt or lost I never thought it would take so long I didn't know I truly thought I'd be home by the next nights supper but now.. how much have I missed. or maybe how little have they been texting I lost sight of my phone long ago all I took with me was the letters and pictures my friends made for my hidden in my pocket along with some trinkets I picked up a long the way I've always adored things that were shiny or rusted I loved the contrary I love metal something about collecting makes my soul glow my friends knew this about me they always called me a crow I smile at the memory it warms my heart to remember every time I feel like collapsing in this freezing weather all I must think of is them and suddenly not even the coldest of nights could infect my determination I must get home but I refuse to leave until I find it I have to find it I cant go back the same way I was I need it in my being I cant return to what I knew, its unsafe its simply not right for anybody not me not my loved ones not people I may meet.

as my visions dims my heart races faster than it ever has before.. not now I've gone so far I can't collapse now not with everything on the line not alone not when I have worked so hard not without making it back I trip over my own feet falling directly on my knees catching myself with my hands I shake my head ignoring my body begging to shut itself down I ignore how my muscles convulse I shove myself forward now crawling just as tears brim my eyes just as I'm about to give I see something in the snow only a few inches in front of my I move closer.. a strange light from beneath the snow its subtle I would've missed it if I wasn't so close to the ground I pause before I grab at the snow starting to dig down maybe this light is exactly what I've been searching maybe truly I did make it it wasn't for nothing maybe I can make it home with the solution in my frozen hands.

I continue digging, the faster I dig seemingly the longer it takes so I slow my pace maybe patience is the true key despite my anger on how much I've already waited I continue trying not to feel frustrated I suck in a breath trying to calm my nerves I watch as the more I dig the brighter the light glows the sight stunning beyond belief breathing it in helps me ignore the ice in my lungs.

I dig and dig slowly

so painstakingly slowly the light is glowing more and more with each inch of snow removed.

along the way I find shards of light I pick them up putting them into my pockets they're sharp cutting my hands up till crimson runs down them but as if by magic it heals after only a moment. I continue picking up shard after shard now realizing the solution will not be found in one solid objects.. I must piece it all together but first I must obtain all of the parts.