The dark Side of Me

for Z.F.

I wish some things
About me were undone
So I would never have to worry
About my right to do wrong

And killing the thing closest to me
That is but only a fraction of my fantasy

I wish some things
About me were untrue
So I would never worry
About being unfair to you

And ignoring the side of me so vile  
Only so I can make you smile

I wish some things
About me weren’t so bad…

So that I needn’t want
The things that are out of my reach
The things that are forbidden fruit
The sins that feel too good
To be good in reality

I wish some things
About me were non-existent

In order to rest my conscience
Filled with dirty desires
And a partial anger
That drives me crazy

I wish that side of me was gone
So that I could truly be yours
And yours alone