Happy New Year

Holidays are always hard. 
The days I hoped I’d see you…

Your name came up in conversation the other night, 
but I swear to you I almost threw up. 

These days I can’t tell whether or not you think of me, but I can tell you this: I think of us.

The future holds no promise for me, 
but I always wanted so much for you…

For a moment, I thought I saw you actually look into my eyes.But then I realized it wasn't love I was feeling. 

It was heartache.