Better Than This

It's time for a change

but I don't know if I can.

Am I too far gone,

made too many mistakes?

Did I miss my chance at

Sanity

or normalcy

or love?

There has to be a bigger picture,

I'm just not seeing it yet.

Is there a surface,

or am I forever drowning?

I can't do rock bottom again.

Scars can only be broken open

so. Many. Times...

before they don't heal anymore.

Nobody can save me,

I have to save myself.

These kisses

and whispers

and sleepovers...

It's a temporary fix

doing permanent damage.

I can't lose myself.

I am better than this.