But I still love you

When you believe that the reason for the breakup is you, how do you carry on without your love�. This, unfortunately is true.

Very rarely does one come across

Someone as exceptional as you

I consider myself lucky that I did

I am grateful for the love you showered on me

For showing faith in me, like no one else

Slowly but steadily I moved closer to you

Shared my heart, enriched my soul

Trusted you with myself

I painted a very pretty picture

Of my future with you

Of our life together.

 

With your arms around me,

I got over the fears and the insecurities

That had been a part of me for so long

I was happy, I was eager

I was ready to start anew with you

I believed that I could overcome any obstacle

To make my dream come true

All along I was unaware that the biggest hurdle was me

I stumbled, I fell. And got up to a different self

I have lost you to my recklessness

I have stained your life

Sadly, I realized it too late

I have accepted my mistake

But I don’t ask to be forgiven

It’s too big a crime for that

So I have moved away

I hope you can move on

You haven't lost anything

For you are without something,

That wasn't worth having.

But I have lost happiness

The happiness that was made of you.

So, even though I cannot have you here by my side,

I still hold you close to my heart

The first thought on my mind is always Y-O-U

And I carry your memories everywhere I go

You are not with me today

But I will never be without you

 

 

Reviews

[Yvonne Heidt]

OMG - I totally have chills. (sorry - the valley girl slipped out!) This is beautifully written with honesty and (I believe) integrity. I FELT this.

I can relate to it all. The pain and loneliness are here without whining. Excellent job.

I LOVED this line:
"I stumbled, I fell. And got up to a different self"

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

It's really hard to let go when you love someone even when it is for the best, and it takes a good person to admit they are wrong. Thanks, debileah

[Requiem]

Thanks for entering my 'pain' contest. I like how you go one way with it and, then, swing an entirely different way. Good job and good luck.

[James Mayfield]

Very well written. I can feel the emotion you so lovingly embedded into this.

[Ailee Way]

there's so much truth in this-- i was thinking how much i relate the whole way through it.

I painted a very pretty picture

Of my future with you

Of our life together.

jeez. i know. and-- it drives me nuts-- because it felt so real and so fated when i was making those plans and painting those pictures, and the time i put into that future...it's frusterating to think that it was for nothing. good job on this. i feel inspired-- this really kicked up all kinds of feelings in me. i always need to take your poems one or two at a time-- they're all really intense, and i can't just breeze through them.

[Kell]

Loved it! You really know how to capture the feeling of being madly in love. Keep up the great work!

[S. P. Vaporis]

oh man. so sad is this tale of love and loss. better for you the mistakes are realized and you take responsibility for your part. you will be stronger for this later even though right now it may not seem so.

[GraceKelly1974]

WOW! I really enjoyed this piece. It was so honest and one line I can completely relate to is "All along I was unaware that the biggest hurdle was me". Excellent work.

[Geoffrey]

Wow, that was good.

[Rain]

Caffeine..
I read this and my automatic reaction is to try to help. But, I realized there is no help, you have to somehow ride it out. It's a beautiful, but sad piece of where you are. Many of us know your feelings. I do. All I can say if I hadn't lost that love, I would never have found my 35 year marriage. It's hard to think of it in terms of being good for you, but..
It is so real and genuine. Excellent write. Rain

[Doug]

sad. very very sad. i was in a sort of relationship where this happened to me. we all make mistakes, but unfortunately we have to live with ourselves and the consequences later... im sorry for your loss.