I Remember the Time I First Knew You

c. 2014

I remember the time I first met you

With your hair pulled back in that cap

And the way your smile lit up your face

But I don’t remember much after that.

 

I remember the day I first saw you

For everything you had seen in me

And it was a feeling like never before

But I remember I was different than I seemed.

 

I remember the way I first wanted you,

Crazy and caught up in it all.

I thought for hours about what I should do,

I harshly debated the fall.

 

I remember the night I first wished for you,

A stupid and childish thing,

And I pondered how life would be with you

But it all just feels like a dream.

 

I remember the warmth I first felt from you,

While stupidly denying the thought,

And there was nowhere I felt more safe and secure,

But I have long since tried and forgot.

 

I remember the time I first knew you,

I was broken beyond all belief

And I needed my comfort, my laughter, my boy,

But you took that moment to leave.

 

So I remember the day I first blamed you

For everything that week and since

And I know that’s unfair toward you,

It wasn’t your fault, even then.

 

And I remember the day we first talked again,

Unsure of what really to say, 

And you just kept me smiling and laughing;

I just miss things being that way.