Theories

From: Jess

Lol i dont no ur not an easy person 2 read

10:39pm 7/29/08

 

Not really the fifth

Somewhat last

We're talking about me here

 

She says she believes

 

Now I know why you asked me for it

I won't say to keep it exciting

 

Try again

 

I've gotten quite good at this

 

Consumed in little details

 

I'm ruining this

 

I'm going to take a ride one and never get off

 

I need more power

I'm something else

 

Stop already

 

Papers about don't tell the story

Children can't speak

It's not my fault

They only listen

Unfortunately people poison what is good

Circle of life

Maybe

 

What was once an invitation is now outdated

Forever lost

 

She might be coming back but I'm leaving

 

My life is electronic

 

I've made it

Success is mine

Finally

 

Feeling weak and it shows

But that says something

A clever fellow once died and why couldn't he save himself

Why couldn't he love?

I'm that man

Stuck in a shell of whatever holds me in I guess

 

I can never ask you what your name is again

I can never hear that again

Engrained

 

I can leave whenever I please

But I choose not to

I'm breaking the walls

And destroying this home

And you'll never fix it

 

I rest in carnage

And watch them take you away slowly

 

In the car you break down

I'm dying

I said I wouldn't last but you don't care

Rotting into something better

With some sense and losing my head for one last time

 

F**k it

We're here today and I'm alive and well

This s**t sells

 

Rewind the tapes and pause the nights

I'm not nervous

Are you?

 

You suck us all dry

Welcome to this place

And join me in the driver seat

 

I tell myself it's my source of light

But it shines right through me

 

Is it Christmas time again yet?

Am I alright?

Will I fail?

Will I fall into the ocean and drown away to another country?

 

But who will understand me there?

Who will show me the shore every time I've missed it?

 

Different is good

Maybe not as everything should

But nice and the change brings me up a little, good or bad

Happy or sad

I know neither

Sinking into the ether

 

Steady

Agile

Ruined

Crossroads

Acceptance

Struggle

Maybe?

 

Time for the new soon

I'll enjoy it one last time

Like this

 

Piecing the puzzle is like catching fish

Never sure, hit or miss

 

Does she like to read?

 

Will the letter arrive in time?

 

I'm excited to see what becomes of it

What becomes of us

 

Haven't heard good things

One opinion

Maybe another

 

Don't tell me that's it

I want to keep going

 

This is it

The time is now

Stand up

 

Kill the melancholy

Kill us all

 

I can here you under there

 

Everyone breaks the law

Remember that

That's all I'll ever show you

 

This is a rescue and I'm saving you

 

You're not yourself

Who is really?

 

Abrasive

On this track

Doesn't stop for a while

Reminder

 

Some would call this selling out in your world

 

Good attitude

Magnetized your waves and fooled us all

 

Someone speaks

Are you on some kind of mission?

He's lying

You don't need it

Park the car and call it quits while you still can

 

I can't believe I understand this first time through

 

Was that an introduction?

 

Playing out like a film

We play the role

 

How did you get out?

Not what you're thinking

 

Keeping it tight

The wire breaks

Will you fall or rise?

One might notice the irony but I certainly don't

 

I just sit here

That's it

 

Shouldn't be out here

 

Imagine this fifty years ago

 

Imagine my face and the expressions devouring it

 

Maybe a coincidence  

No consequence

 

One last time

Will you notice?

 

The planes were crashing on this field when you took it all

I began to bury myself

Began to see

 

Make Money In Tough Times

What makes it tough?

Is it the people?

It can't be me

 

Potential

Perhaps exponential

Somewhat myself perhaps

 

I don't know how I feel

Have nothing to say

Not years yet I suppose

You mean nothing to me

 

Yet I find comfort

She probably doesn't think much of me

These days who does?

 

I'm catching on

 

Was it about me?

I received it and I feel changed

 

Looking back will I remember?

 

This isn't treason but I can't go on

 

I can hear them close by

 

Thank you

But a wasted effort

I chose this