last words to compose before the door gets close

Should i write nd tel as am supposed... should letters by me be composed... if i write i would bring sarrow instead of delight... my words would be gloomy describe d darkness inside me show no light... finaly i decided to compose... describe hw she left a lonely heart hw much pain she did cause... suddenly she said u still dear to me nd to my heart... but baby i cnt no more, we have to be apart... she said the ryt path i,ve shosen... wt is d penifit of going on if in d end i wd be losen... wt hapen white rose ?...wt has turned ur pinky promases to words lyk those... why after u had been full of confidant u asking if answring becoz... why after u had been in top u r strugling to survive u lonely rose... wait young man... here is words u should understan... it,s nt abwt u it,s abwt reality... who wd garent d future amoung all humanity... i cnt tel u hw much u r dear... it,s just d future i fear... u hav no idea hw much u am mesing... it,s just me in a realtionship i cnt be sticking... wt d hel young lady... i dnt need more explinations keep my mind shady... i knw wt am doing nd wt i hav done... it,s over for me but i admit we had alot of fun... young man plz wait... let us get this straight... u r d best u r great ...it,s just me in love i hav no more faith... in love keep belving never give up... dnt coz am turning away nd breaking up... u said we had alot of fun so dnt harm yourself dnt cary a gun... wt d hel ?... Do u realy think i wd cry over u get myself kill ?... i wd be carrying a gun ?... Huh... Blve me if u r going wid ur lyf wid mine i wd run... if u surended chosed to be in earth my place is in top near d sun... wait young man plz... my last words r these... young man it,s life... if we r meant to be we wd be a husband nd a wife... dat wd be one day if Allah wishes to waiting is d only thing to do... it,s ok younglady wish u luck... i care no more no more am stuck... u chose it to be dat way... dnt cry for me in future saying hw stupid i was dat day... dnt dispirtly call me hamza baby u hey ?... Plz dnt leave me alone plz stay... u chose it to be dat way... more than i wish u luck i have nthing to say.