I Kissed you Goodbye

It's not your good looks that attracted me. It's not your sweet talk that I fell for. I say it's what I saw deep inside that beautiful heart of yours. What I thought I saw. There's no one like you. It's amaing howy ou can make the beginning seem so perfect. Nothing will ever come between us. It was just you and me. Slowly I realized I was wrong, the taste of perfection started to rot inside of me. It started to die. What you turned to wasn't what I dramed of, wasn't what I wanted it to be. A beast! That's what you became! The beauty I saw within you soon turned into dark, cold, and ugliness. I tried to fight the ugliness of your heart, the beast that was within you, but seing you, hearing your lies of how much you love me was my weakness. So I gave in, I allowed you to push me around and take control of my mind and body. Soon I realized I didn't know how to stop it. I myself was addicted to your pushing and controlling of mind and body. Feeling like in a glass of water trying to breathe, to survive, to get out! untie the chains of my hands, I was finally set free, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't walk away. I wanted to help you, I wanted to believe that you will change. I waited a year for that so called change. One last time... just one more time with you. In your arms I couldn't find that warmth of your body. "Don't go. I see a future with you". I wanted to see what you saw... but there was nothing. Only your betrayal, addicton, lies, and manipulation. The worse part wasn't losing the beauty of your heart. It was losing me. I kissed... I kissed you and walked away... slowly... fading... from your sight.