Escape

I sit here thinking about what to do next

The rain drops fall hitting the skylight

The start to slip down my face

As the rain picks up the tears fall faster

 

My mind is taking off in all different directions

Jumping from the present to the past and back

The most painful memories of all come rushing in

Like water flooding over parts of the earth

 

Every single part of my body hurts

My heart is starting to crumble into millions of pieces

There is nothing to hold it together anymore

It’s fighting a war that apparently can’t be won

 

I get up and throw on a sweat shirt, socks, and sneakers

I grab my I-pod, put in the ear phones, and press play

No one is home; I race down the stairs and out the door

I leave the door wide open and start to run

 

The tears are still falling down from my eyes

As I run further the rain starts pouring harder

No one in the town is around and I’m alone again

Pushing myself harder with every second that passes

 

The beach wall is in my sight: so closer yet so far away

The more I want to reach the wall the further it seems to move

It’s like the dreams that feel impossible to reach

Or the wishes that even a fairy godmother couldn’t make come true

 

My escape is finally in my reach

I run down the stairs and to the rocks

I sit down and stare out at the stormy waters

Its waves crash on the beach pounding the sand

 

Why did my dad let me go, leave me and not want me

I was the girl who would never be daddy’s little girl

The daddy who will never see her grow and get older

The girl who’s family pretends she’s invisible

 

The girl who wouldn’t have someone to protect her

The scared little girl that has no one to love her

The quiet little girl afraid to spread her wings

The shy sweet girl no one will never get to know

 

All the tears I had held in forever dropped off my chin

I’m completely soaked from head to toe

The heart inside me has finally become a hole

The only thing left to me is all the pain and memories

 

Thinking about you hurts me more now than ever

How did I lose you, how could you have let me go

You’re not here anymore and I still can’t let you go

Everything reminds me of you no matter what I do

 

I jump of the rocks and onto the sand

The wide open ocean calling my name, drawing me in

I run straight into the ocean stopping for nothing

Tons of waves crash over me holding my down

 

Once I’m free I swim further and further into the ocean

My mind slows down and stops thinking completely

My body stops pounding and hurting all together

This is my escape and my final freedom 

Reviews

[Immortal1967]

very nice...so full of emotion, can feel it when you read it...great job

[Paradoxical]

I'm amazed... it's so wonderfully written and I can feel the emotions that you're portraying so clearly... great poem, love it

[al25]

Without exagerating this is honestly amazing. You express how you feel so effectively its unbelievable.

[Sweet_pale_cacophony]

This seemed as if you cut a piece of yourself and put down on paper.You wrote this with perfect grip on words and structure yet this oozed with sadness..angst and i wanted to leap up and give you a big hug.The entire paragraph where you say you take your i pod and rush out of your house to escape your mind,i saw a glimpse of myself in it.You will be fine...keep writing :)