Thrown Away

I wanted to run as far away as possible

Just run forever and never look back

I wanna hide from everyone and not be seen

To stay locked up, put away, safe and protected

 

Time after time I survived all the pain

Time after time I made it through the wounds

Every time I fell down I got right back up

It was my fault for not staying down the last time

 

In the beginning I held on by many ropes

Then I held on by pieces of yarn

String was holding me up for a while next

Now all that’s left is a single piece of thread

 

There was a different blade going in me every strike

Each one hit all parts of my body

Every strike comes faster than the last

They cut deeper as time continues on

 

There was once a bright flame inside of me

It burned brighter then the sun ever could

But years past and it started to dwindle

Now there is nothing but ashes

 

Before the was a heart that was whole and unbroken

Slowly and painfully it was broken into pieces

It was almost completely gone except one piece

That one little piece ment nothing for now it’s gone

 

I am alive physically but not emotionally

On the inside there is nothing left of me

The person that I used to be is no longer there

The life that was once in me is now drained

 

Eyes that were once sparkling are now empty

The cute smile once there has now faded

The girl that once pushed herself farther doesn’t even try

Going to bed with tears falling hurts more each night

 

The things you used to say seem so true sometimes

Why do people throw me away like I’m nothing

Why is there so much pain growing in me

I don’t know why life goes this way

 

It’s a tug of war between mind and body

I just barely exist in this world

Love comes and goes like the seasons

Happiness is an impossible goal to achieve

 

The faith I once had is long gone

The hope I had has left with my soul

The dreams once made aren’t worth making

This girl slowly starts to fall

 

There aren’t enough tears left to cry

I’m running out of ways to live

To keep whatever is left inside me alive

To live in a world with nothing for me

Reviews

[x]

'There aren't enough tears left to cry....

Great line.

[Dream Weaver]

This is not a poem but a sweeping epic
novel that has it all..beautifully accentuates
love and pain...well done

[Immortal1967]

wow...love this one too, soul laid bare, very good style and so deep, awesome work

[al25]

You've got a typo in your third verse should be of* insted of 'or'. Anyway I think your poem is great. I really understand what your talking about. I'd just like to say your not alone in this world. Great job.