I Wish

I had never known what real love felt like

I only knew what I had seen growing up

I had gotten used to the idea of never finding it

Taking the chance to find it terrified me

 

Growing up I created walls to keep pain and love out

The thought of falling in love was never even considered

Pain and hurt were two things I didn’t need more of

I never went looking for love it wasn’t worth it

 

But somehow I fell for you, now I’m left crying

I did everything in my power to try and stop it

But everything I tried wouldn’t work

Why did this happen, how could I fall for you

 

I went through so much with you for so long

I knew every single thing about your life

You knew everything about mine

You promised, but you’re not by my side

 

You came splashing into my life like a tsunami

The first time you called we just sat on the phone

Not one word came out of either of our mouths

You were the shyest person I knew next to me

 

We could text from hours never running out of things to say

When we finally talked on the phone something happened

I couldn’t sleep one minute that whole night

I replayed the whole conversation thousands of times

 

I had always cared about you from the start

Your laugh was something I could never forget

Your voice was so sweet, gentle, and soft

The things you said melted the walls away

 

The first time I saw you I wanted to run into your arms

Your smile was so sweet it could melt a girl’s heart

I couldn’t stop myself from smiling and blushing

You saw my face and started laughing

 

I never thought you would walk out of my life

You promised so many times that you wouldn’t

Every day we made so many memories together

But now there’s nothing left of them

 

You took my heart and shattered it to pieces

You walked away never taking one look back

I wanted to run after you, but couldn’t

That day I felt like there was no life left in me

 

I cried in every class I had that day

I wanted to run away from here

I kept wishing I had never met you

I wish you knew how much I loved you

 

I wish you knew the pain you caused

I guess I didn’t mean that much to you

I guess you never really loved me

You became like everyone else in my life

Reviews

[x]

Perhaps he saw something in you that didn't add up?
just a thought.
Did you ever stop to think of the pain you caused?
No, its always about self isn't it.

Great write, I hope your mummy and daddy are there for you.

[DamienHino]

So much in this poem it really shows the entire proccess of falling in love and getting your heart broken...sadly. I think girls hurt more...broken promises dang...great write!

[FlawedByDesign]

You seem to write a lot about love, be it finding it, losing it and the subsequent pain (just be careful of exhausting the subject matter - lol). Once again you express yourself in a simple manner and it conveys the message and emotions well.

"I never went looking for love it wasn’t worth it" - agree with this; let it find me :)

"It made my heart do thousands of back flips" - I found this a little corny, but that's just me.

Well done.

[Immortal1967]

wow...very good...loved it

[JC]

so real and raw it made me feel guilty....

[.]

You are a very talented writer. wonderful flow and rhyme scheme going.

[al25]

I think this is your best peom. Its so real and full of emotion. I'm sorry that this has happened to you. :)