It's Been A While, I'm Engaged Now

Walk up to 3B
Knock on your door
Wait for you to finally open
And see you at last

And I told him in the car
This is how it usually went
Me always coming to you
And constantly waiting for you to finally recognize the effort & love I gave to you

But it was never enough for you
All the drives to South Jersey
And all the bus trip & walks in the rain
The continuous efforts to engrave my presence in your home because it seemed I was never on your mind

And you didn't deserve that
You didn't deserve me at all
And it took a whole 6 months to recognize
Who was really there for me

Spending cold nights on swing sets telling our childhood memories
Decorating my apartment for my birthday party
Caressing me when I couldn't handle the deepest anxieties overwhelming me

He was there
The entire time
And that's the thing I missed
But, how happy I feel to know I'm finally loved & appreciated
Something, you could've never given to someone like me
Something, you will regret your entire life