"You Embody a Lotus Flower"

Lotus flower f*****g tattooed on my skin
It took this long to figure out who I am
And I remember when I used to live in that s****y apartment
With one big tree in the middle
And I took you there
And you looked at it
And said
"I'm glad I could be part of your past"

But that's not half of it
The times I laid crying forever in my
mom's bed
For a dad that never came home at all
And all the times I was thrown and I was hit
For average grades and suspensions for hitting boys that tried to kiss me on the lips

And I don't think anyone will get
What the f**k this means to me
Cause I came from the shittiest of places
Whether it was decaying on Adams Ave, Union St., or f*****g anywhere where it had you, you, you, YOU

All I know is
Im happy where I am
Looking down from where I came from
I hope that I'll never return again to any of those places
Where I died & resurrected