Anita’s Backroom

God bless my friends
The moment I give news of grief.
They all know exactly what to do.
Anita clears her schedule for the week so I can come over and sleep at her house.
Anthony picks up every phone call and always pays for food.
Nana comes over and makes dinner with me once a week.
Claudia sends me a quote picture everyday about losing someone you love.

Alex, he’s still here. You guys are still together. Why are you being so depressed?

What Anita doesn’t know is the future
And if this will mean something to you like it does for me in a month
So at 1 AM when we’re smoking pot in her back room
I told her about the moment you and I shared here
How many times you would prevent me from leaving because you loved me and this is what you wanted, nothing else.
And you were so high that night
I can see your eyes and your hand on my back keeping you steady.

I loved you then.
I love you now.
I will love you forever.
And I will never let you leave, because this what I want. Nothing else.