We Were Once Lovers

March 2015’
Cool air and room space
Film and Art on the wall
Green eyes intact on my frame
Warm hands and cold feet
Always protruding out of the bed
Always so much more taller than me

We would watch a movie and you would turn around
Always watching me watching the movie
Since you already watched it 33 times

Your apartment was our home
Where our ideas infused and love lived happily
Always sneaking out of class to find one another in each other’s beds
The elevator in Murray hall was our coven
The bench our place of rest
The classroom our war on knowledge
The vending machine a paradise

You would be my #1 fan
And I your #1 critic
I always watered our grass green
Until one day you stopped caring
You fell out of the idea of being in love

October 2019’

Smoking a cigarette on a bench at 3 AM outside of the ER
The wind howls
I don’t think of him
I haven’t thought of him since this morning
And it’s true
Unrequited love divides every day till it’s nothing but a drop
I laugh at the memory of you
Sitting on your rug making a box of Lana Del Rey quotes while I told you about my new love
You dropping the sharpie and looking at me wide-eyes
I hear it
It replays
I wish I could tell you how right you were, Austin.

“He’s going to hurt you. You’re not going to know when, but he will Alexandra. I’ll tell Sky to keep an eye since I know you would want me gone after this. I love you. Please don’t let him hurt you.”