October 30th

A Poem by Alexandra

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder
I told the psychiatrist I hear voices
And I can’t concentrate anymore
She asked about my mother
And I felt like a damn finally splitting open
I broke
Tears beaded down my pale face
She asked about Diego and what happened
That I had no words to say
But I told her we were physical
You name it, we’ve done it to each other
I was trembling and my mask finally came off
The true me showed
The duplicitous girl that has been hiding since 13
I finally got to meet you
And I’m sorry, but I have to take medicine now to control us
We’ve been ruining our lives since 13
It’s time to make a difference now
For good.
But I’m so glad I found you