Relapse

I don’t know what caused it
In between doing my makeup and putting clothes on
I sat on the floor and balled my eyes out
Is this a sign that you did something?
I always believe that anytime one feels the urge to cry is because someone they love is tugging away at their heart strings: separation at its finest

All my work to look presentable today
To try and talk to Luke went to s**t
I decided to stay home and cry even more
I am so tired of pretending I’m okay
When I never am
I don’t think I’ll ever be okay

Today I woke up grabbing my right side of the bed after a nightmare. I forgot, I’m so sorry.