Really Going to Try

Accelerated into this Wall

Impacted with Blood spattered patterns 

Loneliness does have this way about finding 

Knowing where to go, without wanted  this obstacle

Continue sped with a knowing 

With pain to listen to my shame 
a emptiness, no one else to understood with sincerity 
the dried, dark brown bloodied wall, among burnt regrets

Objectively with a gain, looking upon this wall

The hope, lost, self with this action now prevailed 

Destroy my soul, now spread ripped to the judgement 

a time to finally give my heart, unravel this mourning 

really gonna try this time

avoid the ending felt hurtful emptiness 

Soul to be of freedom with a relief

to really try this time 

Drinking to this time, time to be of this idea 

wasted moments of the forgotten mornings 

exist the next day, chained and locked to this brokenness 

Remain, alone, with crippling energy 

avoidance to face, blood dried, darkness, 

left empty 

really going to try next time 

going to try with honesty, live in a lie

Let blood dry slow

really gonna try this time