Failure

Lyrics

Never know to love another
This distance of darkness and deep emptiness
I am alone and unfair to others knowing I cannot love
This hurting, unaware oblivious destructive sabotaging

A hollowness from burnt fuel left in ash
unwelcoming, self hatred, a voice of suicide
out of control, hidden into a laughter and failures
I hurt
angered with death, I sit staring into this emptiness, just in this f*****g void. Nothing

years become consistent wasted time.
self reflection into a void within my mind.
My soul is blackened oil thickened drips.
clouded in the lost childhood dreams
I Sleep, dream and fade to sleep in dreamt comforting waste
The morning wishing to not awake, awake or awake to this dull empty hole

The self is all I need, non existent fantasy of my past
A mere insect irreverent to a stepped on bitterness
Open the eyes into blackness, blackness and the red is everything
I am alone scared in fear, being this nothingness, slow blood draining towards death

My blood drains together with loss
The cruelty with slowness to seeing everything
a way out, a way out, way out to bleeding out this torture
Laughter is the only welcome. While in humiliated slowness of the heart beats in comfort, absence of life and love.

The dreamt death, moving towards this conditioned hurt and stumbling hell, broken with coldness frozen soul
I will never be enjoyed, infinite dark colorless loneliness
escaping even is disappointment. A failure.