you stayed away

a girl heartbroken

Did it hurt you the way it hurt me?,

Did you spend days,weeks and months in misery like me?,

I always think to myself,what did i do wrong?,did you ever want me back?,

I thought we was deeply in love,and we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together,

We planned our future,our kids names,our wedding and buying our first house,

Did all that mean nothing to you?,we both said we love each other but now i know it was just me,

When we went on a break i did genuinely think that this was just another break and that we would get back together,

I thought this was just a short little break for you to realise we need each other,

I thought it would be the same as every other time,when we'd go on a break and get back together after a couple of days,

We both knew it was toxic but i was too afraid to let you leave because i loved you so much,

When it was over a week you didn't come back to me,i reached out to ask if we was getting back together,

I had missed you more than ever this time,then i open your message and you said"no not this time sorry"

I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces,crying and trying to get you change your mind about this,

But you blocked me and i broke all over again.

I really did think you'd be back by now,but no,your not 

And you was my biggest heartbreak,its been over 3 months without you,

It may sound stupid but that's genuinely my biggest achievement,

I used to think you you'd be coming back,but no,

You stayed away...

Author's Note

give your honest opinions, no judgment

Reviews

[Jtjohnson]

Great way to cleanse your soul and start again.

[Coyote Poetry]

Hello dear Eva. All of us yearn for a second chance. Who was wrong and who was right. Doesn't matter no-more. I liked the honest emotions and the questions in the poetry. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[willweb]

Really sad the feelings expressed in this and I can't even imagine this not being real, because I could feel it. And I have felt this same pain a time or two in my life.