Fake love is a dream compared to the nightmare of loneliness..

Someone tried to turn things back for someone to love them. They desperately want to be someone they can be proud of. Since they think they’re a failure now.,.

Would your eyes regain their gleam
If we forgot and lived in a dream?
,Fixed your heart that tore at the seam
Even if everything’s not as it seems
Even if we’re not the perfect team
Even if I can never be redeemed
Would you finally not be so mean?
Can your heart where nothing is seen,
So blurry, maybe even become clean?

Do you now even hate my last name?
Since now it’s just became a chain
Even when it’s what stayed the same
Since all I do now is cause you pain
Do you now just feel forced to tame
The hatred that drives you insane?
Do you hate me for what I became?
Since I never just used my dumb brain
I know I’m the only one left to blame

Can you please just get deja vu?
If I told you I just hate myself too
Would you now help me, start anew?
If I rubbed enough would I melt, all new?
Can you just not put me on a shelf, shoed

We probably both already knew
I could never fill my old shoes
The ones that I always used
Even if it’s just all reused
Even if my feet refused
Even if they’re too loose
I don’t care if I’m the muse
Now reduced for you to review
The past that now haunts us two
Can I still be the one you choose?

Am I just a disappointment in your eyes?
Am I the one you can never fully chastise?
So to stop yourself all you can do is sigh?
So you won’t feel guilty and I won’t cry?
But if we could live in a world of lie
Would it all be so different?
If I really do my best and just try?
Even if all the love is lent?
Would you no longer resent this tie?
Even if it all causes a big dent
Even if I’m just forced to die
Even if it can never ever mend
Please just don’t say goodbye
Could we live in this fantasy of mine?
Even if it’s just all pretend
Could you let your hatred fly?
So now you can love me again


Can you at least get deja reve?
I don’t want be left to grieve
I know I’m being really naive
To believe your love I’ll achieve
And it feels selfish to deceive
But I’ll do it so you won’t leave

Even if we fall just so deep
Somewhere just so profound
Where bad emotions don’t seep
Somewhere where I’ll never be found
Even if the love feels so cheap
Where I’ll never be so confound
And it will be my secret to keep

Even if I’m not who you see
Even if I don’t hold the key
Can you please love fake me

Author's Note

Help with grammar , structure, and development.

Reviews

[Neha agrawal]

don’t even know what to say — this hit way harder than I expected.
It’s like being inside someone’s unfiltered thoughts as they beg not to be left behind.

You put a voice to the silence a lot of people live with.

[PaulAnka]

Thank you so much for your kind review! I was worried this poem was too sloppy. You flatter me, honestly I just wanted to make a poem that is relatable to me at least. That explores how people would want someone to experience deja vu or deja reve in a twisted way…