Poison

I bit you

and drew blood

one I would rather

die than EVER hurt

and yet there it is

the poison of distrust

the multi millennia of Eves

whose self deceit destroyed

the man they loved

the decades of abuse 

violence , rape , neglect

and homelessness have taken their toll

not a pound of flesh 

but of heart

and left the sting 

of scorpions desert under the tongue

like a razor to flay

the skin of your soul

oh foul being

that slips so easily

into a pattern thought destroyed

the good that I would I do not do

and the evil that I eschew

is what is displayed

oh ruinous and fell creature

in whose sight I cannot

forgive My self

I did not show you mercy

and I see none for me

whose self control has

slipped so easily upon old ice

no apology I can

conceive will retrieve 

the damage done

or the sum of what I see

detractable in myself

stupidity has mounted reason

and whipped her senseless