The Agony

Why do we have such trouble

          trying to explain

the height of ecstasy 

          and the depth of pain

when to you I am connected

          the blossoming of joy

where upon it being severed

          hollow emptiness deploy

 

 

I hear your cries in the vagaries of night

but your distance           prevents the healing of your plight

your pain has saturated     every cell in my soul

but only can the embrace           of Love make you whole

 

My heart aches          to hold you to my breast

to see you lifted          like a kings treasure chest

wish you could see          in mine eyes your own reflection

and take away that you aren't precious          misconception

 

I have never spent my time          tearing you apart

but sought those qualities         shining in your heart

who keeps telling you         with a derogatory voice

That you're valued less           than any other choice

 

I have loved you            from the day we first met

my promise until the end       I'll you not forget

I exerted to support you           every drop of energy

though would have rather     had you very close to me

 

There is no treasure           over you I cherish

count them as nothing    that my Love should perish

an espoused sentiment          will not a tummy feed

I had to work          to roof and clothe your need

 

The only family at the time          that cared for you

two grandparents          who tried to help me through

they saw to it       every school year you had clothes

and when I lost them          how my sanity then froze

 

I'm required to forgive          those who threw us away

and the father           who never supported you in anyway

also the men   who hide those who violate

until our God by Christ          does away with hate

 

Sometimes in Life          there is no indication

the path required                 will receive its vindication

I already know every place         that I have failed

and my own inadequacy    which upon I've railed

 

Someday perhaps          You will understand

Gods requirement     to care your needs demand

if I hadn't been alone          might've been easier to stand

and in myself          what I've lacked not to reprimand 

 

1 Timothy 5:8

But if any provide not for his own, and specially for those of his own house, he hath denied the faith  and is worse than an infidel

 

 

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