Behind these bloodshot brown eyes

This is what I see when I look into my eyes.

I was asked to look into my eyes today

& say what I see in them.

I'm not sure I want to but I will,

It's a challenge.

 

So I stare into a mirror hesitant to look at my eyes.

At first when I look I see nothing

But I see more as I look closer.

 

I see the pain of everyday happenings.

When I found out he liked her.

Growing up without a dad.

 

Being cheated on over & over again as if I mean nothing.

Fighting with my mom.

 

Thinking I know it all

When I'm really clueless.

Thinking this world is going to end

When I'm really still stuck here.

 

Every time I got into a fight

With that drunken a*****e.

Every time I've failed

When I thought I had it.

 

This is what I see

Behind these bloodshot brown eyes.

They're beautiful but still bloodshot

From loss of sleep.

I see those nights laying awake

Thinking of someone who doesn't even notice me.

Thinking of everything that's happened in the last 24 hours

or even a week ago.

 

I see all kinds of strange things behind these bloodshot brown eyes.

 

I've been through so much,

Everything has come down to here & now.

Where am I to go?

Author's Note

I was inspired to write this when John Stussy Asked "What could you see if you looked into your own eyes? I'm challenging you to look."

Reviews

[Jessica Benfield]

wow... this is amazing... all the pain and anguish you express here... and yet you leave the reader with that final sense of hope through the end - "where do i go from here?" the lingering question adds that anticipation, and even hope within all the thoughts of past struggles and pain. nicely done!
smiles,
jess

[Ally Baker]

woah, this is was an amazing poem! It was greatly written and expressed all ur feelings very well. You really do have a terrific talent for writing. I hope you never stop! :D

[Wildfleour]

An excellent write. One step at a time, my dear, one step at a time is where you will go from here.

A few comments:

There - They're

Also, you may want to play around with how you broke up the lines.

[John Stussy]

Wow, well first off I'd like to thank you for having the courage to step up to that challenge. It takes courage to analyze it the way you did, then to share it with everyone here. There's darkness in there alright, we can't hide things under the surface with mirrors. Mirrors, don't lie. Excellent poem.

[Adela Muresan]

Hmm�Well illustrated self consumption.
The generalized pessimism and depression shape the inside of the soul you describe, without showing the will to carry on or hoping for the better.
*****Sad poem.

A.M.

[An owl on the moon]

Such a tender depth, letting us see just a hint of your soul, your dreams, your pain... I know what I want to see when I look into my eyes, but it's rarely there... Thank you for the challenge not to turn away!

Craig

[Lyndsay Castro]

Wow. Very well written! It's really honest and you mirror what a lot of people probably feel. I know I saw myself in this. Thanks for sharing, it really is a good piece.