Help Me Understand

This is dedicated to my boyfriend, who despite his indiscretions, I still love him...

Help me understand,

was it all a mistake?

Should I have listened to them? 

Or was my own thought good? 

I was heartbroken and you caused it. 

Should I have let you go? 

I can't help loving you, you're amazing.

But if these are your true colors…

I think I want out. 

I am always there for you,

but you can't see it. 

I love you,

but do you really know? 

I would do anything for you,

do you know that? 

I lie awake at night and cry,

Baby do you know what you did? 

Do you have any idea the pain you put me through.

That night, that one night, I wanted to end it.

I saw the gun in hand, the noose ready, and the razors sharpen,

I wanted to die. 

All I want to do is please you.

It hurts me to know you can't accept it.

Why baby, why? 

You mean the world to me,

I'd buy you the moon if I could. 

Stop

Don't lie

Don't cheat

Just,

Love,

Me.

and help me understand,

understand why I can't let you go. 

Author's Note

Just let me know what you think...