i missed an opportunity to understand

i can feel my love for you draining me,

skin turned grey.

an ache in my marrow, a poison inside of my veins

each night it makes me collapse a little more,

all beneath your name.

a hunger never touched, and never fed to this day

it keeps me wide-awake.

i love you from afar

and you'll never turn my way,

i pray that life will bring me close to you

because oceans carry the same waves.

it's not longing, 

t's a sickness

a hunger with no mercy,

its something that i cant sate.

you're everything i want

you're all i think when i pray.

and i die at the thought that we'll never see the day

when you know me like i know you.

we're nowhere close

but you're all i know.

i leave the kitchen light on

and pretend that you're here,

although,

i'm a shadow in your world,

close enough to see,

close enough to shade,

but you're far enough that i cant reach.

of course i would remember you.

you’re hard to forget,

and i mean it when i say

that it's something i regret,

when i had the chance to tell you

what i would say to my roof every night,

like i was rehearsing my lines.