Can You Forgive Me?

Have you ever wondered if your sin was just too 'big' for the Lord to forgive? Read this!

 

As I lay awake in my bed very late one night
The Lord impressed upon my soul-that these things I should write

 

He asked me to move from behind-the driver's seat of my mind
To allow Him complete control-for without Him I'm blind

 

He spoke these things to me from Holy Spirit to spirit
"Please remove your hands from the wheel, for only ONE can steer it"

 

"Okay Precious Lord", was my instant reply
And I was so overwhelmed that I began to cry!

 

For I couldn't believe the Lord was speaking to me!
A poor, wretched sinner heading straight to hell-had it not been for Thee!

 

As Jesus wiped away every tear from my eyes
He said, "Why are you so shocked? Why is it you cry? Is it so hard for you to believe that for you I died?"

 

I felt so ashamed of how I was living my life
Overwhelmed by such guilt-my struggles and strife
Thought about how 2 times I became a man's wife

 

I felt so ashamed of arguments and fights
How at times I gave in to complaints and gripes

 

Doing all types of things that I knew wasn't right!
Thought of the times I didn't stand-with all of my might
Thought about the many times, I completely lost sight!
Times I put myself in a jam-situations too tight

 

I thought about many things, I've said and done in my past
All the times God tried to slow me down-when I was moving too fast
All the times I turned my back on Him-barely escaping sin's grasp!
And all the things I put in first place-and Jesus in last
So many empty promises and unfulfilled tasks!

 

Lord how could You ever forgive me for all that I've done?
For trying to fight a battle that You've already won?

 

How could You forgive me for the problem I have with  my mouth?
The disrespect of my husband-every scream and shout?

 

Can You forgive me for my divorce?
Every time I used force?

 

How about every time I've gossiped?
Oh Lord, even after the many times You've tried to get me to stop it!

 

My God, my God-how could You ever forgive me?????
Standing in Your presence-so much I can see!
How wonderful You are-and I'm so very unworthy!

 

Oh Lord, these crazy feelings that I feel!
And to think with all of this-You love me still?!!!!

 

Oh Lord I almost forgot! My secret 'sin'-the one in my heart I hid!
Lord, can even this one You forgive?!!!

 

The one that makes me scream and shout?
You know, the one I never ever talk about?

 

That one that I've tried so desperately to keep undercover?
The one that I regret more than all the others???

 

Then the Lord spoke again and said, "That's enough my child, for no sin is too great
When you repent with all your heart, it's never too late

 

To receive My forgiveness and unconditional love
For this is the reason I was sent from above

 

Don't you see, my child-once you receive Me in your heart
At that VERY moment-you made a NEW start!

 

And even though you'll still struggle for as long as you live
You're no longer a slave to sin-no longer held in bondage

 

Dear child, you have been SET FREE!
Each day that you live, just submit it to me!

 

Every step of your journey, My Spirit will lead
I'll conform you to My image and help you plant good seed

 

Just make sure life never gets so loud that you can't hear My voice
And always consult with Me before you make each choice

 

Remember, I'll NEVER tell you to do a thing-which contradicts My Word
And never ever go against My message-you've heard

 

Oh Satan will use false teachers who will lead many astray
But you stand firm in your faith-and seek Me each day

 

Believe with all your heart and soul that I will NEVER leave you nor forsake you
And no matter how Satan will try to attack -I will see you through
I'll show you My way-and you'll know what to do

 

When bad things happen in your life, it's only because I'VE allowed them to
Though you may not understand at the time-but I'm fulfilling My purpose for you

 

Just persevere till the end and keep trusting in Me
Remember this life on on earth is just preparation for eternity

 

Last but not least-KNOW that I love you with an EVERLASTING love, dear girl
And greater is He who lives in you, than he who lives in the world!

 

Written by: LaTanya M. Scott