No One Knows the Pain I Feel

 

This poem was written in 1998 a while after my first husband cheated on and left me and our 2 kids, and while my mother was dying from breast cancer. This is how I felt THEN, but the Lord has brought me through and made me stronger than ever!!!! To Him goes all the GLORY!!!!  

 

No one knows the pain I feel
About to lose my mom, lost my husband and still

 

Have to go on as if I'm okay
When only God knows how I make it through each day

 

No one knows the pain I feel in my heart, in my soul-how at times I wanna die
How I glance about at the trees, the moutains, the sky
Looking up asking God-"Why? Please tell me WHY?"

 

No one knows the pain I feel-like my heart's gonna bust
How my best friend in the world betrayed my trust
What a painful thing-giving in to lust

 

No one knows the pain I feel-imagining my life without the only person who will love me unconditionally
Watching her suffer-knowing death's coming eventually

 

No one knows the pain I feel-when the one person I planned to spend my life with leaves me
Doesn't come around for my children-lies and deceives me

 

No one knows the pain I feel-when my world literally changed over night
I feel as if I've done nothing right
Like I failed-and as if I've lost sight

 

On reality-but that's impossible or I woldn't be feeling this pain
There wouldn't be cancer eating away at my mama's brain

 

No one knows the pain I feel-when it seems I'm all alone and no one cares for me
How scared I am-not knowing in a year's time where I will be

 

No one knows the pain I feel- wishing I could take even half of my mother's pain away
How I'd give anything for here to have just one day

 

Pain-free-without troubles on her mind
Lord why did this have to happen to my mom-she's one of a kind

 

No one knows the pain I feel-when the man I gave 7 years, two children-my whole life to
Suddenly gets someoene else pregnant-after all that we've been through

 

Pregnant with not one but two-illegitimate babies
In a matter of one night-he took back all of the happiness he ever gave me

 

No one knows the pain I feel- how helpless I feel
For it's indescribable-the pain is unreal
God please take this pain away-see me through this ordeal
So I can at least see that I was wrong, Lord-for YOU know the pain I feel!

 

 

Written by: LaTanya Scott