Out of body experience (RIP ME pt1)

this is the first poem in a two part series...

I’m banging on the walls that surround me

Trying to break myself out

My tear stained face as red as my bloody hands

My voice raised to a shout

Im screaming to my loved ones

Because I know something they don’t 

They won’t trust this girl, I try to convince myself

They can’t trust her, they won’t

This girl looks like me 

Sounds like me too

But she is an imposter 

She does things that I would never do

She sounds like me

But her words as poisonous as venom

Clearly, her thoughts are far from God and far from heaven

She looks like me

But the corners of her mouth always sag

If looks could kill shed send everyone out in a body bag

We have the same legs and same arms

But hers move with arrogance

Why anyone likes just doesn’t make sense

I have to get out of here

I have to send a warning through

So, I start doing the only think I can do

I pull my numb hands away from the red-stained wall

And place them along with my forehead on the floor

Then I pray to God to show me a door

I pray for the strength to take this imposter down

And make sure she never returns

I humble myself in front of my Lord

I’m so desperate it burns

I feel a spark in my heart

So quiet and dim

But its slowly growing

As I as God to forgive my each and every sin

I will take back my life

Its the only way

I will not be silenced, not anymore

There is so much I still have to say