salty sweet

Sometimes I mistake salt for sugar

I think something will bring me happiness when it ends up bringing darkness

I search for a sweetener, craving sugar coated candies, dripping in sticky syrup

Or perhaps a spongey, moist cake, layer after layer smothered in light buttercream 

But they somehow end up a mirage, an optical illusion

Because when I take a bite all I taste is salt

My tongue shrivels up like a prune,

Preventing me from expressing my discomfort

I try to drink water, to wash it all away

But it tastes as though I’m swallowing tears

Thats when I realise I’m crying

The salt burns my eyes, my nose, my mouth, its so painful

I shrink and shrink and shrink until

Im the size of a grain of salt

I’ve become what I hate most

When someone takes a bite out of me, mistaking me for sugar

They will join me, they too will become something they are not