impulse control

I have bad impulse control

Im very selfish 

I do what I want when I want

Sometimes if I’m lucky

Ill stop what I’m doing before it gets bad

But more often than not

I keep going

It gets to the point where I don’t feel remorse

My apologies are in genuine

It gets to the point where the consequences don’t scare me

It gets to the point where I can look at myself in the mirror

And I’m okay with not recognising who I’m looking at

Its pathetic how I can’t even control myself

How will I be a mother?

A sister?

A friend?

A wife?

I would turn back time, if I could

I would be the person I led everyone to believe I am

Fake it till you make it, right?