I try

what if i wanted to change?

change into somebody else?

what would i do?

what could i do...

 

i no longer know myself

im fed up with playing pretend

ill try

to find out who "myself" is

 

i no longer understand

when and why i let myself cry

tears of many things

regrets and lonliness

ill try

to hide them away

 

wounds inside and out

scars that have leave me with no doubt

i see blood flow

that ceasts to end

i try

to act as if there no longer real

 

with all these thoughts in my head

i try but have no reason why

i cant go on

but ill try to live life

and act as everything is alright

Author's Note

on mi mind nd felt like writing -athena

Reviews

[~ Moonlight ~]

Great Great Great! Good write!

[Hotwater]

It's good to get out the pen and just go for it, though it is a wee bit sad.
Interesting... your bit of "day dreaming".
*bird*

[rwar ish me]

very good write!

[Kiari Sabon]

nice write

[Roze Collions]

i like it good work

[TheElfPrincess]

Very nice poem, full of emotions. You kept me reading until the last stanza. It was truly wonderful. Well done.

[Cassiopia Summers]

It's never good to hold it all in... I know for a fact this is true, because I do it. Everyday, every moment, every second. I've always bottled things away and tucked them away in my mind, but in the end it's a terrible thing to do. In the middle of my 5th hour class, I had a mental breakdown. I was reading a book, which I do alot, and something in it reminded me about my emotional distress about my father's death. It's a terrible feeling to just burst into tears, hyperventilate, and try not to look around and see if everyone is staring at you like you feel. Please, I know you don't know me very well, but I would never ever wish it upon my worst enemy, so please, please, if you feel you need to do this, then talk to me. Send me a message, comment on my page and I'll message you. It doesn't matter, just don't hold it in to everyone.

[Victoria PoetryBunny]

i enjoyed the 4th stanza... this was good emotion and strong, good questions, nice write

[oops sorry (not really)]

what do u think of negative reviews? (random) well, interesting it is simple like Kenneth the Geek said (did he mean to put Greek?) probably not

it's not professional or anything but.....anywayz I'm not too into poems so you know

[Short.Nerd]

I like it :)