I'm Sorry

Over these feelings :}

"Remember no one's perfect."

Then why does everyone expect me to be?

I'm no more than you are.

I'm sorry I don't know better,

Even though I should.

 

It's that mask I'm hiding behind

That makes me so vulnerable.

I act happy. Even though, inside,

I'm dead.

The thoughts that go on inside my head

Seem logical to me,

But I know I'm not that smart

So give me a head start.

 

I never meant to cause you trouble,

But I'm tired of doing so.

And no matter how hard I try

I can't seem to please you,

Yet you think I decieve you.

I guess that disguise I made of a "happy girl"

Doesn't make sense to you anymore.

Sorry I try to grow up a little

Just to make you love me.

But it seems I'm the immature one,

I'm the only one I have to blame.

Why am I the only teen that's not treated the same?

You forget. I have emotions.

No matter how hard I try to be that black hole I say,

Things get to me too.

There's those dreams I'm not allowed to pursue,

That hurts. Plus, I obviously don't matter.

I'm a waste of space and mass.

 

And then people wonder

Why I don't give a damn.

Maybe because I've been taught to be selfish.

Or maybe I just think about myself before others

Because no one would put me first.

Maybe it's because I've been rejected

Or because I've been ignored.

I know I can't take much more

Before I blow up.

So please don't make a fuss

About something that I say

Or something that I do

Because most things I say may or may not be true.

 

 

Reviews

[Perkele.7885]

This is a poem of enlightenment. Someone is stating her case. She has a lot to say and no one has ever listened. Well it is about time before she explodes. Will anyone notice?

[Coyote Poetry]

Wisdom in your words. Easy to make mistakes. Hard to repair. Sometime I believe people need a stronger shell of protection from words. Words are easily spoken without thoughts. I like the ending to the excellent poem.
Coyote

[~Lizzy♬]

Oh my goodness! I'm speechless... :O

~Lizzy~

[joshua deathdealer]

Incredible write. This is close to how I felt growing up. Thanks for sharing..xx
Great ending as well.

[Alicia Hirshey]

Beautifully written.