The Ugly Truth

Sleep

At 2 AM

Uncommonly 

I have insomnia

No. 

Sleep 

No sooner than 2 AM

Every night 

Work at 6 am

Sleepless, restless nights 

Caused by the burning hole

Silent attacks at 4 AM

In fear of waking the house

Phone died 

No charger

I’m so depressed

No.

Lack of energy 

Lack of motivation

For basic tasks

Last shower?.

4 days ago

Mental illness 

Laying in bed 

Paralyzed

Responsibilities to be completed 

With no will 

To put effort 

Consequence?.

A racing pulse

Sweat dripping

Palms shaking

Ragged breathing

Searching for savior 

Once in a person 

Disappeared 

Alone again

Nowhere to turn

Swallowing the pain

Razor sharp 

Slicing down my throat

Choking back

Cries for help

They don’t care

Broken

All you’ll ever be

Searching for silence

At the bottom of bottles

The butts of cigarettes 

The bowls of pipes

Till my feet lift

From the cold pavement 

Till…

…Numb

Reviews

[Bryan Webb]

A deep and sorrowful story is hidden within your piece. One that makes us feel empathy towards the subject of restless torment. A subject who wishes just to not feel, because not feeling is better than this.
I felt a connection to this, due to my own pseudo-insomnia. Lying awake in bed at night because sitting up watching un-intriguing TV and playing the same repetitive games are dull and pointless, while writing is hard to manage when demons whisper in your ear. Very good poem and a wonderful read. Thank you.

[Broken Molecules]

Thank you so much for the review. My insomnia actually grew stronger with age. I, now, hardly ever sleep during the night and before it was terrible. I used to get home at around 4 am to be AT work at 6 am. Also this piece addresses a lot of different things that have happened my life, so I'm glad my words were able to make you feel something. Thank you.