What Now?

What now?

I wonder what will happen now

That your decision has been made…

Your mind's made up; your plans thought out;

Your fate is sealed, all debts are paid.

Our time is past, the past is dead.

There is no resurrection here.

It's over now, and we'll move on

To new adventures; far and near.

We both have learned a lot, it seems

Those lessons, yes, they caused us pain.

Someday I know my heart will heal

But until then, won't love again.

It's broken, and no use to me;

No glue or thread can mend it now

The only hope is time will pass

As quickly as you broke your vow.

I trusted you, that trust is gone

Just like the wind, away it blew,

The day you said you'd changed your mind

And someone else awaited you.

I don't know why we've both held on

So long…that should've never been.

I wanted you to realize

You loved me… not just as a friend.

I waited, hoping for so long

The error of your ways you'd see

And some day… maybe, you'd wake up

And realize you still loved ME.

But you moved on at lightning speed

Found someone else to love, but still... Y

ou never told me how you felt

Or didn't feel, and never will.

And so I clung to hope in vain,

I should've seen the signs I know,

But, the eyes of love don't want to see

The signs of someone letting go.

I know that I should wish you well

And maybe that will be, someday

But the pain of losing you to her

Will never cease nor go away.

I'm sorry, but I cannot stand

The thought of you with someone new

Sometimes I think I'd rather know

That you were dead, no…that's not true!

For if you died, then I'd die too;

I couldn't let you go alone.

I'd go with you, stay by your side,

Protect you from the Great Unknown.

I'd walk through Hell to let you know

How much I think your love is worth,

But knowing that you love another

Makes my life here Hell on earth.

As close as we have always been

I know now I must let you go

To live your life the way you choose;

Give up my dreams from long ago.

Someday, I hope that you'll look back

With fondness at the memory

Of our sweet love, brief as it was

And know that it was meant to be.

Too late by then, to make a change

For I will have moved on, and yet

Some part of me will yearn to know

If one day you will have regret?

Regret for breaking someone's heart

Whose love was once so strong and true…

Faint memories of smiles and tears

From long ago: still missing you…

I myself, have no regrets.

I did my best; I will stand tall,

'Tis better to have lost your love,

Than never known your love at all.