My pain

The pains of low self esteem

My pain

 

Yesterday and today my mind went astray.  So now my life is left in dismay.

I am tormented by heartache and pain. I have no one to turn to which leaves my emotions in strain.

I sit alone in the dark haunted by my dreams.  I try to hold up strong as the tears turn to streams.

Afraid and alone I seem to be.  Just waiting for someone to understand and reach out to me.

I cannot clear my head and fall back to sleep.  I awake again only to be just as emotionally deep.

I try so hard to be so strong.  But everything I do just seems to go wrong.

Maybe it is time to deal with the sorrow, so that the light will return to my face tomorrow.

I try to hide my feelings inside.  Only to find that I put myself onto a roller coaster ride.

I don’t mean to hurt the ones in my life.  The pain I cause to them cuts me like a knife.

I cause pain to myself so my agony is masked.  And now to be around me is a great task.

Maybe if I sit down and cry, I will no longer need to ask why.

I am sorry to those I have cast away.  I write this to get better today.

As I open and let out the pain.  The sun will come out and dry out the rain.

It is the damage I have to amend…hopefully the ones I love will still be here in the end.